I Thought You Said Forever!

"I Thought You Said Forever!"

What does forever mean to you?
When you couldn’t even keep it true
You said were you’d forever be there

But were those just words pulled from thin air?
Did you actually love me?
Did you really see the feelings I see?
The truth, the love, the loyal tears
The betrayal, hate, and the fear

I thought you felt the same
That you would cover me in the rain
I thought forever and always was forever
But now there’s not an us…never
You said you’d always be there for me

But now I truly see
That you never saw the feelings in my soul
Now you’ve pierced my heart with a hole
But my heart has healed
Now I have friends that are real
And you're gone out of my life
Unable to pierce me with the heartbreaking knives
I thought forever was forever not just a word
But I guess that’s not what I heard…


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I thought what you said forever
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It was like a dream to have such a beautiful life-companion. The girl I met on January 2nd, 2006 for the first time was very beautiful. I told her I was not finding a girlfriend, yet, finding a prospective mother for my children.

I said, "Would you be a part of my life, dear?"

"I would love to, Mas," she responded.

I felt it was a wonderful day. I found hard to realize that I was not dreaming to have her. I could not sleep fro some days. I thought of her all the time. I expected a lot that she would be the best ever woman throughout my life.

June 2006, I proposed her to be my wife. Then, on May 13, 2007 we got married. Unbelieveable. I was so happy. Nine months after that, the baby I expected to deliver was born. Constantine Abdullah was the best name for him. I love him a lot. We were happy. I was really proud of them a lot. I was the happiest man in the world to have both of them.

The time went by.The loyal woman, in fact, was a betrayal. Dani Ariwibawa, you are the bastard I would never forgive throughout my life. You robbed our happiness. Son of a bitch! Damn! A bitch teacher! You are a bastard!

The one steals a betrayal's heart is actually a damn-son-of-bitch. They are also betrayals.

I, now, long for the time you tod me, "What would you like to drink, my dear husband? Tea or coffee?"

It's gone. You've gone. I do realize that it is impossible to be back again. One thing I have to do is moving on, but the shadows of being betrayed come around with me. Please God, stay it away from me. I do beg You to release this pain. Please find me the one will love me trully, the one who will love me sincerely, the one who will take me as I am.

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